Mithos Yggdrasil (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
eternaldivide) wrote2019-08-03 10:43 pm
eternaldivide) wrote2019-08-03 10:43 pm
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Week 3 | 2amish After Execution
[ Mithos wasn't sleeping. He couldn't sleep after all that. Though he doubts that there are many other people who are sleeping after the trial. Eventually, although he's not one hundred percent sure why he decided on it, he'll find himself walking over to Room 4 and knocking on the door.
Maybe it's because there was something about Minato that reminded him of someone else ... or maybe it's because he reminds Minato of someone he finds himself knocking on the door.
Either way ... he's there now and he's knocking. ]
Minato, are you awake?
[ He'll wait for an answer. If he isn't awake he'll turn around and head back to his room no big deal, but he does have a few words for him now that he's here, in front of his door. ]
Maybe it's because there was something about Minato that reminded him of someone else ... or maybe it's because he reminds Minato of someone he finds himself knocking on the door.
Either way ... he's there now and he's knocking. ]
Minato, are you awake?
[ He'll wait for an answer. If he isn't awake he'll turn around and head back to his room no big deal, but he does have a few words for him now that he's here, in front of his door. ]
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How....does he answer that...]
...Year ago, I didn't care. About anything at all. Hadn't in years. But then I was asked to fight. My power....derives from bonds, so it started just as a way to fight better. Don't know when I started really caring again.
Know there's a lot of bad in the world. Can look in any history book, or just out the window, and see why there are so many who welcome the end. ...But there's also people who jump in to help immediately if they see a stranger collapse. Kids doing what they can to support their parents. People struggling to find ways to make up for their mistakes. People on their deathbeds searching for meaning in their lives. ...People who give their lives trying to protect people who hate them, people fighting to help a world that'll never know or appreciate their efforts - a world that, for one reason or another, cast them aside.
It's brutal. It's ugly. It's unforgiving of any flaw. And maybe the world deserves the end, but I don't.... I can't see that. Been told everyone, on some level, longs for death and the end of suffering, but....all I see are people fighting with everything in them to live.
So I can't... I can't not. Not anymore.
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Then his eyes widen before his drops his head.
"People who give their lives trying to protect the people who hate them--"
Every word of that sentence, and every word beyond that hurt. It's all Mithos and his sister tried to do. Help a world that hated them and cast them aside all their lives. And in the end ...
By the time Minato is actually done speaking Mithos was shaking as he holds himself. ]
... All the world ever told us was how much we shouldn't exist. That we should suffer or die. But we fought against those words and fought for peace. We ended the war. But ... none of that mattered. In the end I still lost the one happiness I had. The one I cared most about.
[ His voice is small and broken as he speaks. There's a pause before he speaks again. ]
... I get it now. Why you hate yourself. But ... to still care? Even though the world despises you?
[ His voices grows even quieter ]
If they don't care about you living, why care about them if you have nothing left?
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Because giving up on other people just causes more suffering, for everyone.
[People are connected to others, no matter how hard they might try not to be. That kind of feeling spreads, and drags everyone into the abyss.]
Because caring is what I have left.
[He realized it a long time ago - he isn't someone others care about. So he stopped caring about himself, too. Because that's how he survived. He could never become someone others would want - but he could stop being the things they didn't.]
...because if the problem is me, then it doesn't have to be anyone else.
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Do you know how strong you have to be to do that? To care not of your suffering, but of others? To make that the reason you still exist? To allow yourself to be hated for others?
[ The smile disappears as the tears come falling. There's nothing but despair in his voice when he speaks again. ]
My sister did the same thing! All she did was care for everyone but herself because as much as the world hated her she loved it! She put her own suffering aside so she could help and change the world! But what did the world do? They killed her!
[ He's cried about this enough times the past week. But seeing Martel in someone like Minato hurt. He doesn't know when the conversation turned around to him. But somehow it did as he finds himself struggling to stay upright. ]
How can I forgive and care for a world that took her away from me?
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Really are.....just like Ken-kun. Was after revenge, too. For his mother.
[Information for information, right? Mithos can pursue that, if he likes, but for now....he needs something. Answers. Comfort. Guidance.
He needs to grieve.]
...making humans suffer isn't going to help you. [Just like getting revenge wouldn't have helped Ken.] Can't claim to know what your sister would want, but I think you do. What she'd do, if you were the one who left her behind.
Not....trying to say you can't be angry, or that you need to move on. Not how it works. But... ["Let your anger be your strength" doesn't seem like what Mithos needs to hear. He'd asked a question. How...]
Think....if I were in your position.... Would want to protect what the one important to me loved.
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His... mother..?
[ Just ... how much similarity does he have with this Ken? Not that is matters, in the end.
For a moment Mithos is quiet before he speaks again. ]
Her last wish ... was for the world to become a place where elves, humans, and those who were stuck in-between could all live in peace. She ... she would've kept with her wish.
[ He knows that. And he does intend to grant her wish. To make the world a place for them to live ... ]
So then ... I'll protect that wish. A world for me and my sister ... I'll fulfill it.
[ He doesn't seem to acknowledge the whole point Minato made about Humans does he. Only his Sister. ]
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Sounds like she wanted a world where everyone could be happy, regardless of race.
[He doesn't want to push it, but...he does slightly emphasize the word 'regardless'. Hopefully he won't have to be more direct.]
Ken-kun.... His mother was murdered. Protected him - he saw the whole thing. But because he was a child, and because of the circumstances, no one would believe him. Listen to him. Even talk to him about it. And.... Japan's not really friendly to orphans... Can't blame him for being angry.
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[ Regardless of race ... hmm ... Well, that aside, hearing Ken's story Mithos' eyes soften with sympathy. ]
Is that so ... Just like my sister, his mother was killed right before his eyes. And simply because he was an orphan they didn't listen ... Just like how the King wouldn't listen to my sister and I when we were warning them of an attack and ... the Kingdom was destroyed.
... I can't blame him for being angry, either. The only difference between him and I is that ... she was killed and they didn't listen. For us ... they didn't want to listen. When we finally got them to end the war ... she was killed by those who still wanted the mana for themselves.
[ But either way the end result is the same. Someone they loved was killed by Humans, and their selfishness got in the way of their happiness in some way. ]